Well, I know my username is WYKKO, but my nickname is Picklez (longstory). Anyway, I'm a Yondan instructor. I came out of 8 year retirement to fight this year in the lightweight division. The tournament was on July 25, 2009 and I am extremely unhappy with my performance. I took a kick to the ribs and lost by Ippon. It turns out than none of them are broken or cracked. They are bruised and there is a pretty big welt on one of them.
Enough of my whining though. I've decided to train even more seriously (regardless of whether or not I fight again). I like not being 180 lbs and I want to keep the weight off. My goal is to get to about 155 and maintain that. I am about 162 lbs now.
I'm kind of an "old school" training person. Much like Clubber Lang, I like to train alone. I begin with running, then light weight/strength training, shadow sparring, push-ups/sit-ups, and then various types of body conditioning.
I'm "running" on the eliptical right now because my right knee is a little bruised and I don't have full range of motion in my torso. Here's what I did prior to the fight:
I'm going to try and do more running/sprints. I'm also adding alternating sets of 20 reps push-ups and sit-ups between the shadow sparring rounds.
I haven't mentioned any of the kata I practice on the weekends. I'll also do kata before class if I plan on teaching a specific one.
I'm not one for crazy exercises or exercises that require a piece of equipment. I don't jump rope because I am unbelievably uncoordinated, but I may add that to help my footwork and hand/eye coordination.
I will also hit my shins with a 1/4" dowel rod from time to time and I'll get someone to hit me with shinai on occasion, too.
Hangtime
07-28-2009, 04:29 PM
OSU! Welcome WYKKO...
meguro
07-28-2009, 05:34 PM
Welcome! I look forward to seeing you achieve your goals. Osu!
MilkManX
07-28-2009, 05:59 PM
Osu-EN1
Welcome and I cant wait to hear more about your training.
cdsbob
07-28-2009, 06:18 PM
OSU welcome
WYKKO
07-29-2009, 12:43 PM
Thanks for the kind words of encouragement everyone.
Yesterday, I ran about 1.5 miles on the treadmill at 6.0 mph. I then did punch combinations with varying weights. I followed that up with 30 minutes of shadow sparring. It's tough because I don't have full range of motion.
Mentally, I find myself questioning why I'm continuing to train so hard since I don't have a goal in mind, but I came to the realization that perhaps training for the last tournament got me into the karate-ka mindset again. I think I had been so caught up in running the dojo and all kinds of stupid political intrigue that I forgot the true joy in training. Training for the sake of training.
I used to view training as that thing you had to do to get ready for the real fun of competing. Now, I realize the value of just pushing yourself. Or I guess re-realize it. I had forgotten. When I throw that perfect kick or practice that combination with perfect timing, maybe no one is watching, but no one can take that feeling of accomplishment and completeness away from me. For those brief moments, everything is right with the world.
meguro
07-29-2009, 05:23 PM
I enjoy the training for a tournament, and even though no tournaments loom on the horizon for me, I've kept it up. I guess now I'm training to turn back the hands on the clock.:)
medguy
07-29-2009, 06:38 PM
I enjoy the training for a tournament, and even though no tournaments loom on the horizon for me, I've kept it up. I guess now I'm training to turn back the hands on the clock.:)
ditto.
OSU-EN2
Hangtime
07-30-2009, 05:54 PM
WYKKO, I find your comment interesting...
After training so much for the last tournament I find myself wanting to get back into the "rare form" I was in 3-4 years ago. I look back at that level of execution combined with my current physical conditioning and mental understanding and I get excited about what the combination of the three could bring.
I think that's why our friends a state over are out in front; they train hard and they understand why and how things work. They train to train, not to be the best, but to understand, to do, to know. No goal, they just train to be the best they can be.
tmd
07-30-2009, 06:09 PM
Osu WYKKO an interesting thread, I too am finding the motivation to just train the hardest of all - training with a goal has a set purpose, a schedule and a set rhythm, but without it all I seem to do is go backward and gain weight so keep us informed, for me I have to set a new goal, next tourney is in Nov. not necessarily, going to compete but see just how close I can get to match fit so that I at least have the option to test myself if desired - I think my target of fighting at light weight is currently laughable for me though :)
sandman
07-31-2009, 01:21 AM
Osu!
I've found that training for a tournament motivates and focuses me more than anything else can. I'm pretty good at training hard year round, but when I get about 8 weeks out from a tournament I find myself really pushing myself further. I feel like my karate improves during those periods more than any other time.
Osu!
WYKKO
07-31-2009, 02:41 PM
My current injury has been acting really weird. I still don't have full range of motion. I have about 95%. If I move just right my ribs hurt and then for some reason, it feels like I've been kicked in the groin. The pain literally emanates from my gonads and then my stomach starts cramping.
I'm not a doctor so I have no idea what all this means. It's only happened 3 times this week. If it happens again at all next week, I'll probably go to the doctor. Maybe that kick loosened up some kidney stones or something.
The other weird thing is that there is no bruise. It feels bruised and there are lumps on two of my ribs. I'm wondering if those weird medicated bandages I got from Japan are keeping it from bruising? I am also very gently massaging the injured area for about 15 minutes every night before I go to bed. I know that this breaks up the blood clots that cause bruising.
sandman
07-31-2009, 09:08 PM
Osu!
I hurt my ribs last year at the mock tournament in Anniston, and they never bruised either. I'd gone to the Dr but he didn't do an X-ray or anything - just said whether they were bruised or broken the treatment would be the same (basically take a tylenol if the pain bothers you). After about a 1 week or so they got to the point where it was just a dull pain instead of a painfully sharp one, and it took about 5 or 6 weeks before the pain completely went away.
The gonads thing - could this be collateral damage from the (now infamous) self defense partner incident? :D :D I don't remember feeling that with my rib injury...
tmd
08-01-2009, 09:01 AM
I'm not a doctor so I have no idea what all this means. It's only happened 3 times this week. If it happens again at all next week, I'll probably go to the doctor.
If it's bothering you don't wait there could be more to the injury than you can see, Rib breaks are an internal injury you have no way of knowing what's going on in there.
What I would add is the NHS in the UK couldn't give a monkeys in my exp. - you tell them your ribs hurt and they say 'oh well nothing we can do just rest and take anti inflammatory' NEXT! But you seem to be having either completely unrelated issues or some side issues not normally associated with rib injuries so get it checked out.
When I break mine (is a Kyokushin side effect BTW) there is no bruising, as I said it's mostly an internal injury after the initial week of pain it was just a case of not being able to do certain exercises well or at all - resting on that side was painful - annoying as it was the way I slept. Incidentally the last time was a two weeks before a tourney - was light sparing with the missus as I'd missed a session and bang, right knee straight into the ribs! As I said seems to be a Kyokushin side effect :o
meguro
08-01-2009, 05:47 PM
I sure sign of busted ribs, in my experience, is the inability to appreciate a joke or have a cough. It hurt too damned much to laugh or cough. The remedy, if you have those symptoms, is rest.
WYKKO
08-04-2009, 01:00 PM
The ribs are actually doing much better now. I gaffled up my right foot sparring last night, though. I can't really put much weight on it. I'm so mad at myself. It's what I get for showing mercy. I was trying to control my contact and hit with the top of my foot rather than my shin. The student then brought their knee up (finally) and it caught right on the top of the foot. What's funny is that it didn't really hurt until I got home and then this morning...Whoa!
I'm not going to be able to run or shadow spar until I can get healed up.
WYKKO
08-10-2009, 05:34 PM
On 8/6/09 I put in some time on the elliptical machine and did my normal punching w/ weights routine.
Today, I hope to actually run outside. I think my foot has healed enough to do that now. It's pretty much back to normal. Except for some stiffness and soreness in the morning. My ribs are still tender if someone hits them with more than 50% power, but otherwise it doesn't hurt to cough laugh or lightly stretch.
sandman
08-11-2009, 12:28 AM
Osu!
I'm glad to hear you are healing up
WYKKO
08-14-2009, 06:59 PM
Slowly but surely, my body is returning to normal. My foot is worse off than I thought. I have a hard time during bow in. Otherwise, my foot is extremely sore in the mornings but after moving around a little it seems to get better. I've noticed that I'm having trouble with the front kick foot position, too.
I didn't run outside all this week. I stuck with the elliptical and I didn't do hardly any training on Thursday. I was so tired that when I got to the dojo I snuck into an empty room and took a nap before class.
meguro
08-14-2009, 07:04 PM
Osu! Try wearing socks to bed. The warmth provided by the socks is said to improve circulation, which may speed recovery.
WYKKO
09-21-2009, 08:22 PM
I've been a bad boy and I haven't posted in a while. I've been trying to amp up my training to twice a day, but the weather hasn't been cooperating. My foot is still injured slightly. I can get into seiza with minimal pain and my foot only starts cramping 1 out of 3 times so that's an improvement. I think my ribs are back to normal.
Here was my last workout routine:
Afternoon:
1.25 mile run
5 rounds of shadow sparring approximately 3 minutes each (depending on the song)
20 push ups (on knuckles) and 20 butterfly crunch style sit-ups between each round.
Before class:
1 mile run
1 mile walking/sprinting interval training. I try and do a 50 yard dash then walk 50 yards; 100 yard dash then walk 100 yards; 200 yard dash and then walk 200 yards; and then start over at 50 until I get back to where I started running.
30-45 minutes of shadow sparring appoximately 3 minutes each (depending on the song)
20 push ups/20 butterfly crunch sit-ups between each round
I take a break every 3 rounds or so and do a kata.
I'm finding music to become more and more important in my workouts now. I don't think I could just run or shadow spar without music anymore. I'm wondering if it's a good thing or a bad thing.
At any rate, one of my new favorite songs is the "Ken" Theme from Street Fighter II. Someone redid the old 8 bit music with electric guitars and synthesizers and it is awesome. The song is over 7 minutes long, but when I spar to it, I go super hard and I don't feel tired. Weird...
YoshukaiX
09-25-2009, 07:24 PM
You should try varying your push-ups and sit-ups, too. Do you do any bag work?
WYKKO
09-25-2009, 07:33 PM
Oddly enough, no. I don't really have access to a heavy bag. The only thing I do that is close to bag work is when I'm working with a student on body conditioning. That kind of reminds me. I need to have students hit me more often.
YoshukaiX
09-25-2009, 07:46 PM
Yeah. I know you and your students would probably line up around the block to get to hit you!
WYKKO
09-25-2009, 07:49 PM
Yeah. I know you and your students would probably line up around the block to get to hit you!
The HELL you say! Hahahaha! By the way, I looked at your profile and I'm trying to figure out who you are since you know who I am.
YoshukaiX
09-25-2009, 07:53 PM
What is it with all you Atlanta people? Your so nosy! LOL Just kidding. Another member of your dojo just asked to find out my secret identity.
sandman
09-25-2009, 11:17 PM
Hmmmm - its a mystery....
FredInChina
11-17-2009, 02:22 AM
I've been a bad boy and I haven't posted in a while.(...)
Hummm - how habits are formed LOL :D
(nudge!)
Osu!
WYKKO
11-20-2009, 01:33 PM
Finally did some training. For those of you not in the loop. I injured my knee fighting full contact on Oct. 31. My opponent swept me on my face as I tried to shin kick him. I felt my knee sort of twist and when I got up I felt some pain. I continued anyway and my opponent won the match. As a demo, I had to break a bat (which I did). My injury took me out of the rest of the tournament, though. I've spent the last few weeks being very careful with my knee. I can now go up and down stairs without any problem.
I shadow sparred yesterday for about 20 minutes and then I did some kata. While teaching class I tried to demonstrate something and I felt my knee pull a little bit and I had a little bit of pain. My knee feels fine this morning though. I think I might be able to start jogging again next week and then shadow sparring. When I shadow spar, I have to do the kicks with the injured knee in slow motion.
sandman
11-20-2009, 01:36 PM
Osu!
I'm glad your knee is getting better - I thought I noticed you were moving a little easier last night.
meguro
11-20-2009, 05:42 PM
Knee injuries, yikes. Proceed with caution. Welcome back.
medguy
11-20-2009, 08:27 PM
WB.
Do you HAVE to run? There are other, safer exercises you can do--such as the bike, or the elliptical machine. They save your knees. This I know, after going from 30 miles a week, to 50 a week, to none.
FredInChina
11-20-2009, 09:05 PM
Welcome back WYKKO, glad to hear your knee is better.
Osu!
WYKKO
11-24-2009, 02:53 PM
Thanks for the encouragement everyone.
To Medguy,
I guess I don't HAVE to run, but for some reason, I never feel like I get wind training when I use the elliptical. Even if I crank up the resistance and go for it, I get off of that thing and I don't feel like I've done anything. Maybe that's the point of the machine...
medguy
11-24-2009, 04:42 PM
The elliptical is non impact, so you can do it everyday and not get injured. Like swimming. As for no wind training, I don't know what to tell you. Personally, I have done tabatas and 1/4 mile intervals on the elliptical and felt my lungs be on fire. Maybe your resistance is just too low.
Hangtime
11-24-2009, 04:47 PM
The elliptical is non impact, so you can do it everyday and not get injured. Like swimming. As for no wind training, I don't know what to tell you. Personally, I have done tabatas and 1/4 mile intervals on the elliptical and felt my lungs be on fire. Maybe your resistance is just too low.
Same here, but i try to do 30/90 instead of 20/10, but I do want to integrate those as well.
Also, I agree with increasing the resistance; start high (most go to 20 I think) scale back as necessary.
Osu!
sandman
11-24-2009, 04:52 PM
I've never cared much for cardio training on the elliptical, stair machines, treadmills, etc... I just can't get my mind past how boring it is. If I'm going to run (or climb hills or stairs or whatever) I like to do it outside.
FredInChina
11-25-2009, 02:03 AM
I've never cared much for cardio training on the elliptical, stair machines, treadmills, etc... I just can't get my mind past how boring it is. If I'm going to run (or climb hills or stairs or whatever) I like to do it outside.
I agree!
However:
- non impact when injured is a good point.
- another is performance can be measured and compared with identical conditions.
Osu!
sandman
11-25-2009, 02:28 AM
I agree!
However:
- non impact when injured is a good point.
- another is performance can be measured and compared with identical conditions.
Osu!
Yeah - on the injury point I agree.
On the performance measurement point - to me its more important to enjoy the challenge. I won't stick with something that I hate doing - doing nothing would be pretty easy to measure though ;) And if you want, you can just as easily set up identical conditions running outdoors by simply running the same route every time.
FredInChina
11-25-2009, 02:53 AM
(...)you can just as easily set up identical conditions running outdoors by simply running the same route every time.
True. :)
ksan
11-25-2009, 12:10 PM
Well, I know my username is WYKKO, but my nickname is Picklez (longstory)
Coincidence or not, but i heard another forum member call someone pickles recently...
Anyways, welcome to K4L
Osu
Hangtime
11-29-2009, 06:07 PM
...you can just as easily set up identical conditions running outdoors by simply running the same route every time.
I run the same route each time; my "preferred" machines happens to be in front of the TV showing "Headline News" :rolleyes: :D
Osu-EN1
WYKKO
11-30-2009, 03:01 PM
I think my knee is back to at least 92%! I can do all normal activities without pain. This includes going up and down stairs, getting in and out of the car, and walking. I can run at about 90% of my normal speed and no sprinting just yet. I can jump normally now, too. I can also get down on one knee with no problem and get back up without any pain. I've tested out all my basic kicks and I can throw them at about 90% power.
The weird thing was that I was getting out of bed on Saturday and I felt (and heard) my knee pop! I thought I was going to immediately fall, so I was pleasantly surprised when I had a greater range of motion than I've had in a while. I spent the rest of the day Saturday doing some light training and testing out the limits of my knee. The only thing I can't do without pain is get into seiza. I'll try it again in class (I did it on Tuesday with poor results). I think the key is for me to be super warmed up before I try it.
Osu!
FredInChina
11-30-2009, 03:15 PM
Not sure I understand everything about your knee, but the main point seems to be that it is much better... :)
Glad to hear that!
Osu!
Hangtime
11-30-2009, 03:26 PM
OSU, glad to hear you're getting back to normal.
Hopefully I'll see you later this week.
WYKKO
02-01-2010, 02:01 PM
It's been quite a while so here we go...
Since my last exhibition match, I haven't really been training too hard. I have NOT been running but I've been to some JKS workouts. I would still shadow spar and do katas before class though. Now that we'll be back at the Rec Center this week, I'm going to start my running regimen again. I am a hefty 173 lbs. I need to start dieting and running again to drop back down to 163 or below. So there's my main goal. I'm not sure if I will fight again this year, but I will train as if I plan to do so.
This past week/weekend have been very trying for me karate-wise, but I feel like everything came back around full circle so I'm very excited to continue my training. In fact, at the beginning of last week I was ready to call it quits, but after a Kangeiko session on Saturday, I've regained my focus and have been reinvigorated.
This probably isn't the place to publish this, but I had WAY too much fun after the Kangeiko on Saturday. One thing I've noticed though over the years is that many of our practitioners train very hard, but when it's party time, the philosophy is "Go Big or Go Home!" I didn't wake up with a hangover this go around but I think it's because I didn't drink any sake...
All I know is that by the end of the evening I was giving hand and foot massages to Rita and Betty Crocker and normal massages to Big Red and the Medic (no, it wasn't erotic! Well, maybe a little. Hahahaha!) Seriously though, my mom is a licensed massage therapist and over the years, she has taught me some techniques to help with karate injuries. It's a little bit of pressure point knowledge as well as understanding how the body compensates for injury and knowing how to massage the proper places away from the injury before addressing the injury itself. I'll have to admit though that the hand/foot massage is something I mainly do for ladies. [Insert Pulp Fiction reference here]
This is how I know I was heavily imbibed. I generally don't like to touch people, but when I get drunk... I'm not obnoxious and gropey or anything. I'm just more susceptible to touching people if they give me permission to do so.
Anyway, I had fun and I'm ready to start training more seriously again.
Hangtime
02-01-2010, 02:07 PM
OSU!
Indeed a good weekend. Thanks for helping draft the idea and setting the wheels in motion!
I'm also reinvigorated about training and can't wait to dive in (further?) head first!
OSU!
DharmaDesigns
02-01-2010, 02:15 PM
It's been quite a while so here we go...
Since my last exhibition match, I haven't really been training too hard. I have NOT been running but I've been to some JKS workouts. I would still shadow spar and do katas before class though. Now that we'll be back at the Rec Center this week, I'm going to start my running regimen again. I am a hefty 173 lbs. I need to start dieting and running again to drop back down to 163 or below. So there's my main goal. I'm not sure if I will fight again this year, but I will train as if I plan to do so.
This past week/weekend have been very trying for me karate-wise, but I feel like everything came back around full circle so I'm very excited to continue my training. In fact, at the beginning of last week I was ready to call it quits, but after a Kangeiko session on Saturday, I've regained my focus and have been reinvigorated.
This probably isn't the place to publish this, but I had WAY too much fun after the Kangeiko on Saturday. One thing I've noticed though over the years is that many of our practitioners train very hard, but when it's party time, the philosophy is "Go Big or Go Home!" I didn't wake up with a hangover this go around but I think it's because I didn't drink any sake...
All I know is that by the end of the evening I was giving hand and foot massages to Rita and Betty Crocker and normal massages to Big Red and the Medic (no, it wasn't erotic! Well, maybe a little. Hahahaha!) Seriously though, my mom is a licensed massage therapist and over the years, she has taught me some techniques to help with karate injuries. It's a little bit of pressure point knowledge as well as understanding how the body compensates for injury and knowing how to massage the proper places away from the injury before addressing the injury itself. I'll have to admit though that the hand/foot massage is something I mainly do for ladies. [Insert Pulp Fiction reference here]
This is how I know I was heavily imbibed. I generally don't like to touch people, but when I get drunk... I'm not obnoxious and gropey or anything. I'm just more susceptible to touching people if they give me permission to do so.
Anyway, I had fun and I'm ready to start training more seriously again.
I hope you never call it quits. :(
Saturday night was so fun; I had the best time. :D:cool:
OSU-EN2
sandman
02-01-2010, 02:29 PM
Osu!
I'd say Saturday was a monster success on all fronts - I hope it becomes an annual tradition. The training itself was great and it was really nice to get to spend time with everyone outside the dojo - I need to do more of that. :)
WYKKO
03-04-2010, 04:02 PM
To be honest, my training has sort of taken a big hit. I'm still dieting and trying to get in some training, but it isn't at the level it was before. I don't think I'm going to fight this year.
knuckleheader
03-05-2010, 02:09 AM
To be honest, my training has sort of taken a big hit. I'm still dieting and trying to get in some training, but it isn't at the level it was before. I don't think I'm going to fight this year.
Anyone who's been away fer awhile, nevers feels like they did the day they
stopped. Just try and get back, don't fret. Just keep trying. And, enjoy yourself.
DharmaDesigns
06-22-2010, 02:08 PM
:)Congratulations on getting your Shihan, Sir! I've never been so proud, and noone deserves it more than you!:)
OSU-EN2
sandman
06-22-2010, 02:25 PM
Osu!
DD, I was wondering if you'd mention that here. Congratulations WYKKO - well deserved!!!
Osu!
FredInChina
06-22-2010, 02:55 PM
Congrats WYKKO! :)
Osu!
Dent
06-22-2010, 03:27 PM
Osu!
Congratulations, WYKKO! That's some rarified ranking right there! :)
Osu!
Hangtime
06-22-2010, 03:48 PM
OSU! Congrats sir. It's been a long time coming!
ashiharakaicho
06-22-2010, 03:54 PM
Osu,
Congratulations.
"Shihan - loosely translated means Master. A Shihan is usually in charge of the technical proficiency of several Sensei's in a given area. Can be compared to a PhD. But there are those for whom even the doctorate is not the end of their studies. They serve internships, go on to post-doctoral studies, do research and make new discoveries about their art. They contribute to their art by their wisdom."
Your contributions here alone resembles the above - OSU!
OSU-EN2
MilkManX
06-22-2010, 04:37 PM
Osu-EN1
Wow!
Congrats!
That is quite a standard.
Osu-EN1
DharmaDesigns
06-22-2010, 05:46 PM
He's too humble to respond to our congratulations, everyone.
I must add that he is without a doubt worthy of such a title. He is the hardest working man in all of WYKKO, and he does it all simply because it's the right thing to do.
He is an example of how great someone can be when they challenge themselves and others to use their minds, bodies, and hearts for the greater good. He is the best person I have ever met, my hero, and because I am so very fortunate: my Sensei.
OSU-EN2
FredInChina
06-22-2010, 05:49 PM
He's too humble to respond to our congratulations, everyone.
I must add that he is without a doubt worthy of such a title. He is the hardest working man in all of WYKKO, and he does it all simply because it's the right thing to do.
He is an example of how great someone can be when they challenge themselves and others to use their minds, bodies, and hearts for the greater good. He is the best person I have ever met, my hero, and because I am so very fortunate: my Sensei.
OSU-EN2
LOL, a lil' buttering up can go a long way FriskyD, well done! :D
Osu!
DharmaDesigns
06-22-2010, 06:28 PM
No buttering up, Fred, all true. :)
The way to butter him up is by making him Spam, eggs, and rice. ;)
OSU-EN2
BigAl
06-23-2010, 12:26 AM
He's too humble to respond to our congratulations, everyone.
I must add that he is without a doubt worthy of such a title. He is the hardest working man in all of WYKKO, and he does it all simply because it's the right thing to do.
He is an example of how great someone can be when they challenge themselves and others to use their minds, bodies, and hearts for the greater good. He is the best person I have ever met, my hero, and because I am so very fortunate: my Sensei.
OSU-EN2
Osu! Even though he won't respond, I'll still give my congratulations as well.
DharmaDesigns
09-21-2010, 12:21 AM
Sir, here's my mom's video of your first place Bo kata from the WYKKO National Championships. :cool:OSU-EN2
This was a humorous adaptation of an exercise we do called Sai Tai Bo. I crammed all six of them into my head (and as you can tell by the video, not very well) in about a day. Mr. G had a flair for comedy...quick witted and hilarious. When I think of the past 8 years, this is what comes to mind.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZj_7h1dRgg
Osu-EN1
DharmaDesigns
06-24-2011, 05:32 AM
Marc-y, I keep looking for you everywhere. I know you are gone because I held your cold hand, but I can't accept it and I can't do it. I keep looking for you. I don't know how to do this, Marc-y. I know you still love me, and I know I still love you. How can it be that I can never feel your lips again or touch your sweet face and pet your fuzzy head? The kids are so devastated. Your son is so depressed. He says he's hopeless. He keeps looking at me with the saddest eyes I have ever seen except mine when I see a mirror and says, "I miss Daddy." Your daughter is so angry and distraught; she just cries and cries. She won't talk about it with me. I heard her telling her cousin today, "He died on Father's Day! Can you believe it?! Father's Day!" How can we do this without you? You gave me true love and strength and then you were gone. I always knew you were going to die. I used to tell you that our love was too good to be true and that God was going to take you from me just like he took their father last year. You thought I was being silly, but I was right, Marc-y. I keep looking at your ashes trying to make sense of this. My favorite part is the tiny pieces of bone I can see because at least I know that was you. The ashes don't look like you, but at least the bone looks human. I know the bone must have been part of you. I want to hold it close to me. I prayed that God could put you back together for me. Please, God, takes those pieces of bone and put him back together again! I can't bear this, Marc-y. Please come back, my love. 1234
DharmaDesigns
08-20-2011, 05:06 AM
Happy Birthday, beautiful. I miss you so much. I wish you took me with you. 1234, Marc-y. Osu